I am a pot-bellied, bald-headed, cantankerous old man. I have no social life to speak of, but I live vicariously through the lives of my family and people whose blogs I read. This blog is primarily my personal diary; kept as a means of self-reflection, to perhaps keep me more in touch with my own true feelings, emotions, thoughts, motivations, etc.
My blog is therefore mostly of little interest to others, and although I post nearly every day, it is almost all set as ‘private’. The public posts are generally restricted to the upbeat and positive end of the emotional spectrum, dealing with the ‘out there’ world. No one wants to read that other introspective, personal stuff which makes up 90% of what I write. I experience substantial mood swings, and the amount of public blogging varies concomitantly (up=public posts abound; down=private predominates).
The phrase “darkness overcomes you…nobody understands” comes from the picture book The Red Tree by Shaun Tan. It occurs on a page where a small girl is trudging through city streets in the shadow of a huge potato cod fish which floats above her! Shaun Tan writes “A nameless young girl appears in every picture, a stand-in for ourselves; she passes helplessly through many dark moments…”. The book was given to me by the most precious daiskmeliadorn.